13 November 2011 Sunday
This was one of the most amazing days of my life. My family and many of my friends and ward members sacrificed and fasted in my behalf. I felt enveloped in my Saviors arms and felt his love encircle me. Everything whispered to me that he knows me and that He loves me and that I was not alone. Dede had listened to a talk given by Elder Oaks on Thursday, I think. She shared the sacred experience she had as she listened to him talk.
The talk was on Healing the Sick. When I arose this morning I pulled that talk and read and pondered on what he taught. Again I felt this tender mercy ofallowing me to remember and learn new things concerning the power of his priesthood and of the love He has shared with all of us. We then went to sacrament meeting as a family. What a great meeting and everyone knew that we were there. The children were very good and I was proud of them, but it is hard with 8 little children to keep them quiet. Kelly just sat and kept his arm around me. He has done so much and been so attentive to my every need. Sometimes he knows what I need before I even have a chance to think about it. His faith will build me up. I love him.After that I went to the Stoddard ward Relief Society. It was a great meeting and I was grateful that I was there. I saw many of my friends and a gentle peace came over me. It was great to hear that Sister Sandi is home and getting better. She is a wonderful women and I love her. The family gathered at 4. We brought Matt, Michelle, Mark and Jacky in via Skype so that they could be a part and John had Leslie connected via the phone. Kelly anointed and then Dad sealed the anointing and gave me a blessing. It was a wonderful blessing and I know it was from the Lord. You could fill the faith of all those who were present as well as those who had fasted and prayed that day for me. I know that family members on the side of the veil were also a part of this sacred experience. There was such a peace and calmness and I wish I had words to describe the feeling and what I learned. My sweet neighbor Marylene and Cathy came over Sunday evening with wonderful hot coca and a pumpkin pie. They stayed for a minute and I enjoyed our visit. Then the kids started to go home. What a blessing it was for both Kelly and I to have them here this weekend. You cannot know the joy that I felt just in watching them. They worked so hard and gave so much and we were so blessed by all that they did. I had my feet massaged by Caleb and then Isaac used water to massage my feet. (I am not sure that anyone else has their feet rubbed in this way.) Emma kept kissing my leg, Libby sat by my and rubbed my hair. Katie, Mayli wrote notes and Maddie drew pictures. Palmer kept putting up his finger and shaking it at me saying, “No more crying Nanny,” and then he would bring me a glass of water. How could you not feel better with that kind of attention? Their Moms and Dads worked their fingers to the bones this weekend. I don’t think they sat down and then they continue to work by helping with this blog. I am so blessed to be loved by such a wonderful family.
14 November 2011 Monday
We went into today and met with Dr. Carl Grey. He is a very competent doctor and took along time to go over all of the test results. They had to send the biopsy results to the Mayo Clinic so that they could sub type it. We are planning on the results being back next Monday. He did tell us that I have a sarcoma in my lungs and a tumor behind my kidneys that is about 6.3 inches by 4 inches. It is oblong. As Dr, Grey did the examination he decided that either he had found the tumor or I was expecting again. I think you can elimate expecting. We went to the volleyball banquet where I was uplifted and found great joy and happiness watching a wonderful group of people. The girls are amazing as are their parents and coaches. It was fun to be in a place so full of life and I even enjoyed the song written by our own Vicki and song by the coaches. No one else was real excited to teach. I had a minute to see my friend Larry who is always so good to me and to the community. We are lucky to have him in this community.